| 6 24 2007 |
[Jun. 25th, 2007|08:49 pm] |
the summer took it all away again, it forgot about me
the perfect memories, the group of friends
but everyone else has forgotten those days
so young and so naive, we never saw it ending
it takes all of you just to remember those nights
and it takes all of me to feel like nothing is wrong
does no one else feel this way
and to think we all felt so invincible back then
what i would give to have days like those again
this loneliness is so unforgiving
the pain felt when trying to relive old memories
they fade like old picture books
and we will look at them someday
only to wonder where we are now
don't you wait
we're only getting older
don't you wait
like the ocean we drift away
but here we are now, waiting for life to end
the distance we've been living is starting to show
and believe me when i say i won't ever forget
the perfect summer we all spent together
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this is a song i wrote yesterday and recorded today. it goes out to all the folks i hung out with around the time of dive breca dive's existence and the tri west kids.
you can find it here www.myspace.com/timrecordsstuff. if you couldn't tell it's titled 6 24. go listen and let me know what's up. |
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| fuck this town. fuck her for being so near perfect. |
[Mar. 14th, 2007|02:35 am] |
this is exactly why i want to leave. i want to find new people and be able to forget what has happened. but with you, i can't forget. not sure if i'll ever be able to either. you sneak into my dreams. and i awake wishing i woulda never woke up so i could still see you. seing you again tonight was the worst feeling ever. so many thoughts came flooding into my head. i wanted to ask you why you ended things the way you did. wanted to tell you how gorgeous i thought you were, and how gorgeous you still are. as soon as i walked in i stared because i knew it couldn't be you, and tried so hard to convince myself it wasn't. but amazingly, it was you. there is no knowing how much i would give for a second chance and for it to work in my favor. why are the seemingly "perfect" girls so fucking blind and oblivious to what a guy would do to spend some time with her. "we're all fucked. so fuck it all."
you all know exactly who i'm talking about. fuck these feelings. |
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| waste of an empty house |
[Nov. 23rd, 2006|06:50 am] |
i think i literally have maybe 2 or 3 people who atleast semi-care about me. and one of them doesn't even really understand much. i think i managed to push everyone else away. sucks. i miss some people a whole lot (we should probably fix this, but i probably ruined it beyond any repair) and i'm not really into the direction life is headed without them.
i should probably be trying to give thanks, but i feel like i'm losing an awful lot. maybe i'll be thankfull to come out of this as a better person. but who the hell are we thanking anyway? |
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| i hate studying |
[Nov. 16th, 2006|07:26 am] |
sometimes i don't really feel part of the family. maybe because i'm not really, but still. ha. always felt this way, never really felt like saying anything to anyone, still probably not.
in brighter news:
if i can bust ass i can see a pretty lady tomorrow. yay! |
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| bullshit |
[Feb. 1st, 2006|11:47 pm] |
trying to go to college is too hard. i thought i had this shit done, but i guess not.
i'd really like the skip the next five years of my life right now
i wonder who'd come out with me on the otherside???
Bending backwards, I'll help you get through
Seeing you this way, I've never cared so fucking much.
And for a second, just let me let you see,
That I'm here to stay, and that we can get through anything
Have faith in anything, 'cause it's me and you vs. them
Have faith in anything, 'cause it's me and you
I feel the pressure. People have shit to say,
Then try to get to you behind my back when I'm away,
But you don't hear them, 'cause you know we're a team
So just look forward, you know how much you mean to me
Have faith in anything, 'cause it's me and you vs. them
Have faith in anything, 'cause it's me and you
Don't sweat it 'cause it's me and you vs. them
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| i need to get over this |
[Jan. 23rd, 2006|06:24 pm] |
this is ridiculous.
i can't even survive through the hours.
i'm sick, but i'm trying.
i wish they made careers out of over reacting. |
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| you know the tune |
[Dec. 12th, 2005|03:15 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | give up the ghost | ] |
the b-i-b-l-e
yes, it's full of tyranny
i stand alone without a god
i don't need a book that lies to me
(made this up today)
life is pretty tight right now. weekends are pretty amazing currently and i hope this shit never goes away. hopefully i can do really well on finals week i really want into IU's school of music. peace. |
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| Be still |
[Nov. 13th, 2005|05:43 pm] |
i'm positively fucked as my mind tries to erase the feelings of my heart.
my heart continues to act as an anchor in my life and i'm a ship that wants to sail. someone needs to come along and help me raise the burden. |
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| Sell My Old Clothes, I'm Off to Heaven |
[Oct. 30th, 2005|10:48 pm] |
my november is already gonna be busy as fuck. i know i was way excited about it before, but now i'm kinda not liking the idea of not being able to do whatever on a whim. oh well, better than sitting at home alone i guess. i can not wake for thanksgiving break though.
things this month:
shows
fall out boy, motion city soundtrack, starting line, boys night out
state convention
lots of kaci would be cool, but based on past results, i'm gonna say it won't happen that often. |
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| i love the way you spell |
[Oct. 24th, 2005|11:36 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | the early november | ] |
i hope i can do this without stumbling too much. |
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| fuck anticipation |
[Oct. 16th, 2005|09:51 pm] |
i enjoy security..
never the inbetween
whether it be in being alone or with someone else.
short week - excited. learn new song - excited. seeing b titties friends - fucking nuts. wondering if next weekend will involve you - meh. |
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| i heart jenny's boobies |
[Oct. 6th, 2005|04:28 pm] |
"i'm thinking about you and me doing it under this table. mrs. cumberworth would be watching but not really because she has a lazy eye." |
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| god damn |
[Oct. 2nd, 2005|04:08 pm] |
fenix*tx rules.
contrary to popular belief, writing essays and doing scholarships, in fact, does not rule. |
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| fuck i'm stupid. |
[Sep. 29th, 2005|10:02 pm] |
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more than a year later i'd still do just about anything to get you back and make you happy. |
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| like a movie... |
[Sep. 25th, 2005|09:34 am] |
last night was one of the better nights. |
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| happy hollow eyes |
[Sep. 16th, 2005|05:17 pm] |
what the fuck?
classic story...i can't rely on anyone. |
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| xapolllox: on to better and bigger(boobs) things |
[Sep. 8th, 2005|11:05 pm] |
single again. no regrets. somethings don't work, we tried. well, i'll see who i end up with next
loser reference: i want mischa barton... oh so hot. just like the oc would be tight to be in love with her.
p.s. the title is a b evan's quote. don't freak out. |
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| putting bricks in place of teeth |
[Sep. 5th, 2005|11:12 am] |
once i run out of truths, i know exactly where i'll find you
because you can never lose something you never had
so we'll keep running, never stopping, only faster
finding the bottom is only the beginning |
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